@Anna As I am someone currently struggling with depression, my input might not be what you're looking for. I also don't know you. But I won't tell you to 'just be happy', or whatever. I'm glad you're alive, and I think you're very strong; it's difficult to overcome that. It's completely understandable to still feel like giving up though. I feel like giving up every day. I know people who know exactly what they want to do, and are working towards their future while I sit here in confusion. So I can relate, in a way. But honestly, that's their life, isn't it? Like, they know what they want to. That's great. We aren't too sure what to do. Also great. You have so much time though. You have time to think about what you enjoy doing, what things you want to do, what lifestyle you would want for yourself, etc. It doesn't really matter how long it takes you to choose what you want to do.