Comment by Li Ha on Li Ha's wall

@Li Ha Have I ever been in love? 
In a way i really wish i could drown in your eyes

And hide between ur lashes

So i can be where i feel the safest

I would wait for you to look into the mirror to get glimpses of you

And be happy that I'll forever stay inside you

I would make a map of your brain so i can read your thoughts

And spend hours changing the things that made u think it's your fault

I wouldn't dare go anywhere else if i could come to you now

I'd choose to drown in your eyes and stay there forever without any doubt 

I would love to see the world from your eyes

I would love to see you from your eyes

I would go into your brain and fix it so you can see urself and fall in love

Maybe then you'll understand why i accepted those vows

I would kiss every part you think of as a "flaw"

I would kiss ur skin till it becomes red and raw

I would wait in a mirror for a thousand year if it means ill see you even once when you try to fix your hair

I would be kind for you, I'm really craving that

I'd love you forever and even after that

They say your love language is how you want to be loved 

So i choose to love you then you and even me in the process 

If i become a gas my molecule would rearrange themselves to spell your name

Even if it meant losing who I am 

I'd love you enough to love myself

That's the kind of love i wish to give you

That's the kind of love i already have for you

So that you're never alone, never not loved

I'll spend all my years with you and it still won't be enough 

@Li Ha Fall 
I never thought you'd die

I never thought you'd make me cry

At first I caught just ur eyes 

They made me feel butterflies 

I thought it was just a lie

When i first saw ur smile

I knew it was ur last with time

I lost u forever, the thought was sour as lime

I thought it's okay it'll get better 

And drew around my heart a barrier 

But it didn't cure the hollowness inside 

All i felt was empty instead 

U were always present in my prayers 

I regret not saying my goodbyes 

Cuz i really need that closure 

I was a young girl who lost her lover

I tried really hard not to fall

But u were as beautiful as fall

I think u did it on purpose 

Made me love u then left us

How would this happen otherwise 

It didn't take me long to realise 

Maybe our love was fated

And I wouldn't wish to escape it 

But i tried my best not to cross the line

And kept telling myself that it was fine 

Then maybe, just maybe

If i didn't meet u baby

Maybe I wouldn't be this broken 

For when my love was taken 

For a moment I thought dying was better 

Than feeling my heart shatter 

I wish i knew that back then

Even though I'd do it all over again

@Li Ha " I didn't hit you when you were kids" 
All i wanted was for the pain to end
I didn't wish for a magic wand 
All I wanted to prove im worth
Why do they say im not enough 
I swear the pain was real  
Is it really wrong to feel
Cuz feeling grief isn't a mistake 
All those tears were never fake
All i wanted was a hug 
Not to be treated like a bug
Cuz my heart kept shattering 
Shards of glass cutting my skin
I bled till i couldn't no more
Lying was never part of my core
Yet u never believed a word
U are so absurd 
You made me ashamed of being sick 
And for every mistake get a kick
I was scared of talking, of existing 
Who knows what response im getting 
Will it be u shaming me 
Or u saying "why r u lying to me"
Why is being alive this though
All i wanted was to breath though 
Isn't it normal for humans to fail
Ironic, cuz i didn't even fail
U would blame me cuz i didn't nail it 
And add to every negative thing yet
I spent my whole life hating myself 
Cuz desiring anything made me selfish
But i was just a kid
Why was i swimming in guilt 
Loving urself isn't bad
That's what i try to tell my head
I wouldn't call it trauma
Cuz it's a huge chunk of my persona
Cuz it's scary to admit it 
That their words actually hit
So deep, deeper than the ocean 
Leaving me with wounds wide open 
A heart that wasn't broken by a lover
A heart that never stopped loving her
"Everyone had it the same way"
What r u even trying to say
That i shouldn't be this burnt
That it shouldn't hurt 
 Cuz frantically it does
Im even scared of loud noises
They made me hate being home 
There's a few streets that id like to roam
I love walking but they don't know 
Cuz im never allowed to get out 
They would proudly say they know me
The girl u know is barely a shadow of me
A ghost that would wear my skin
My voice but it lacks the confidence 
It feels like my bones are collapsing 
And my rib cage shrinking 
I tried to be the girl they wanted 
But even then they criticised
I would never let them know me
That's it, if i know who i am 

@Li Ha just found this website and remembered you did poems on the homepage, had a ball playing round with it: https://acronymy.net/define/word

@Needtoread ayyyyyyy thank u sweetheart 

@Li Ha I actually cried reading that, please go into poetry and post some of tis

@Li Ha , girl you really need to be a poet laureate

@Li Ha  poetry is calling and asking why you aren't in the industry yet

@That Girl Shonen omggg thank u so much that actually made me happy, sorry for making u cry but i truly appreciate i was already thinking of starting posting it smwhere omg ur an angel i love u