@HAHHAHAHA
it doesn't matter if you experienced ra** or not--every single victim is different, went through different levels of it, and process it differently. maybe you would've had a way bigger trauma response from it, but he didn't. that can happen after going through the same thing for a long period of time to the point where you and your brain give up and give in to it. afterwards, while he didn't have a trauma response, he 100% pulled away from him and was even pis*** at hik and hated him for a long time. he didn't forgive him for a long time. but because s** is an intimate act, he'd never really experienced s** like that before, and it was done multiple times, he essentially forged a connection with him, similar to how a hostage may form a connection with their captor, or something similar. just because YOU wouldn't have the same reactions and experience as him doesn't mean it's wrong.
i don't think it was "VERY" unrealistic. i think at most, it was a little too happy-go-lucky and optimistic, but the time spent keeping taka from getting the relationship he wanted, the time spent of him actually learning how to not be shi*** and learning how to love properly and learning how to be a better person, the time yu spent rejecting him over and over again and choosing not to fully forgive or forget what happened and make him remember it--those are all realistic things. yes, yu should've been more hesitant and fearful, but taka's power was completelt taken away once he became vulnerable, guilty, and deleted the pictures. if your rapist has no power and gives you all the power, there isn't much room to be super fearful, only to avoid them as much as possible, which he did in the beginning.
