Praise the Lord that your family today is in a much better place today.
I can relate to your feelings about graduating and not feeling ready. I will say that stepping into the world as a working professional has a couple things in common with becoming a parent for the first time, no matter how much you study or try and prepare, life is going to put you in situations you don't feel adequate (and this is also how G** refines our faith in 1st or 2nd Peter), so don't fret too much. Hopefully you will have supportive colleagues (and a supportive boss as that makes a world of difference)
I agree with you about the guy you are interested in. If your friends continue to push you, it's alright to ask them to help you (if you feel that way). Just be cautious if this stays the same for a while, because the guy could be telling others you are a couple because he assumes you wouldn't keep hanging out if you weren't.
Hope the job you are starting soon goes well. It's going to be a great (and a little intimidating) opportunity to get out of your comfort zone
@Random commenter amen and being honest I do have the feeling of it being scary, you know, starting a job, but instead I feel so eager about it, sadly I'll lose 2 days of training because I have 2 very important test that I cannot afford to leave undone (aka genetics and anatomy 1) I really do hope i have a supportive relationship with my boss and colleagues 😄
And about the guy it's just that firstly everything was building as a normal friendship he's kind of shy but still socialize enough, we both share my thing in common (like our love for cars and food lol) and idk I've been recieveing mixed signal, when we talk in person or by text we do talk a lot and joke a lot too, (I'll admit have had a crush on him for 2 years (since de begging of my 2nd year of college and just a month ago we started talking, he hasn't been the type to search for me yk he's always and his friend group bit sometimes he takes time to joke a little with me and go back to his group, today was the first day he actually came searching for me and we've practically spent every night talking and laughing nonstop but at the same time I'm kinda reluctant because he has the reputation to be promiscuous, I know people can change but even he says he might have a child somewhere and uhm... that makes me not want to try things out since idk how things might turn in that topic but he is a pretty rational and intelligent person, I like studying with him
