@lol 1. She is functionally, physically, and legally her guardian. Subjective familial sentiment is irrelevant when talking about the relationship between a dependent and benefactor. Hence (normal) people’s disgust with, say, Woody Allen. Or the general distaste towards men/adults who go on to sexually pursue children they watched grow up, whether there is a familial relationship or not.
2. I feel like I shouldn’t have to explain turns of phrase, but it should be obvious that Haegu struggles with her attraction to Mian (although that evaporated pretty much instantly with no real exploration). Wallowing in self-loathing and negative self-talk -- instead of addressing the issue -- is a common method of dysfunctionally “dealing” with guilt (especially of the sexual variety) as it allows one to preserve the ego and self-conception by creating distance between a person and their desires. It does not have to be a conscious or intentional action.
2. I feel like I shouldn’t have to explain turns of phrase, but it should be obvious that Haegu struggles with her attraction to Mian (although that evaporated pretty much instantly with no real exploration). Wallowing in self-loathing and negative self-talk -- instead of addressing the issue -- is a common method of dysfunctionally “dealing” with guilt (especially of the sexual variety) as it allows one to preserve the ego and self-conception by creating distance between a person and their desires. It does not have to be a conscious or intentional action.