@bl_loverr 👋 I always thought about why I was like this when I was young. I don't fully know yet, but one way to speed up the process of finding what you want to do/be is to actually look at other people. Don't compare yourself to them. Just look and ask what are they doing, what are their dreams, how are they living their lives.
Imagine you have a blank paper infront of you and you should do something with it. Your mind will probably stay blank for a while thinking what to do. One way to speed the process is to look at everyone around you and ask them what they are doing. One guy decided to make a boat. One guy decided to draw an apple. One guy decided to make a mask. One guy decided to prove gravity exists using that same paper. It's not cheating. It's not an exam. You can get ideas from everyone around you and then do what you think is fun. Good luck 🍎