@CherryCocacola i think when you live your whole life around the thought of being unlovable stuck in an inescapable h*l and then you meet somebody who loves your supposedly unlovable only to fund out that they didn't love youveither it's easier to pretend as thiugh it isn't real or say it's your fault and it's okay if you try a little harder than to accept that thay one person who loved you despite anything was just a facade, an unfulfilled dream