Comment by Yaoiaddicted on Marsu pilami

@Yaoiaddicted tbh i would love to but the thing is i dont have any friends irl and my parents are divorced. I live in a small country where everyone knows eachother. The therapists arent trust worthy that they dont take things seriously and tell their friends and other people about their patients. I went to a therapist once, (for another reason that is too long and messed up) the therapists didnt take me seriously at all one of them even asked me "are your dad and brother using you?" "Are you forced to do this?" which i was 9 at that time. I could say that im kinda scared of them (too long to explain as well) so in the end i dont have anyone to talk to. I dont know if even that would be depression tbh. I dont really remember things that happened in the past which i think why made me lead on this way. My memories are all blurry. The things that i could remember in my missing 2 or 3 years are all bad things. Such as my mother pushing me into boiling water and not letting me go until i scream. There are some memories of her grabing my neck but i dont even know which memories really happened and which didnt. I dont know if im being dramatic or just exraggerating but since thats how old me choosed to remember those i remember them that way so uh theres a lot to talk about for me tbh. But im not going to force you to know all of these. Thanks tho