Tbh alot Ik I shouldn't listen to the depressing thoughts but really I have no reason anymore I'm homeless, I'm annoying, I'm broke, I have no therapist, I'm a weird and I keep having thoughts of hurting people that I don't wanna hurt and it's getting to be too much.. I was already planning on ending it when I turn like 25 but like idk I'm starting to think I should just up the date or smth I genuinely dont wanna be here anymore and I don't wanna hurt anyone.

So like my inhaler is no longer and Im currently on the verge of an asthma attack what do I do

It's like I was offered to go on a trip with my aunt and her fam to the mountains in Tennessee, i ain't really wanna go I kinda miss my family yk. So I'm bac here with my fam I remember I don't like my dad, or the whole stabbing incident that happened and shi, and it's like I'm not in the house with em. I kinda only wanted to be here so I could see my siblings, like my youngest sibling is like talking now and when I left she was like just learning how to crawl so like if I can I'm not gonna miss out yk. But like Everytime I come here I just feel sad ash and it's like I'm not tryna feel like that fr but I can't help it. I probs shoulda went on the trip but frfr I did not wanna be on a trip with my aunt husband yk

Adults make me so mad like how u gonna tell me I'm old enough to wake myself up, expect me to that that, then immediately take my phone which has my alarms on it the moment u see me on said phone. Like tf u want me to do caw like a god**** rooster tf

Ngl I miss wishing on bday cakes, my wish Everytime would always be to have a good year and get a cake that I liked, and every year it was just as I wished but once I stopped blowing my candles out it's like the good years went away, I didn't even get a cake for my bday and I haven't gotten to see my siblings in a yr... Maybe I'll do it next time

Ngl I'm scared like everyone i know is at risk for deportation and I can't even do anything, my own sister is at risk and I'm scared.

Idk what this is and I'm kinda scared, Everytime I look at my bf I think he's really pretty and I always get scared that I look weird and idk he's really cool and TBH I'm not I'm really a loser but I think he likes me but I'm strange and TBH Im preparing myself for when he dumps me but I don't think he'll do that, I like him and I want him to like me but I've never really had anyone actually like me before and idk I'm just rambling now⁄⁠(⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠•⁠⁄⁠-⁠⁄⁠•⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠)⁠⁄

How do I get a job

I'm finna start testosterone