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I just wish i had someone to talk this with but I got ain't no one who's sensible enough to hear me out without judging me, and try to get where I am coming from. So, here I am venting my frustrations, help your girlie out y'all

Last year I realised I was getting kinda fat so I looked up stuff online, started being In a calorie deficit and did as much cardio - walking as I could ( somewhere in between 10-30k almost daily), it was hard, I admit, having cut out all sugary and junk food or feeling guilty about eating it on occasional outings with my family, not being able to hangout with my friends bcz we'd definitely eat junk and while I'm aware once in a while doesn't ruin your progress - it still makes a big difference. Suppose I burned an extra1500kcal in a week, one high calorie meal on the weekends with my peers would be enough to waste all my effort and I didn't want to go back and forth with my progress.

Anyways, last month I weighed myself and I was 40kg after doing and going thru all that sh** for almost a year. However it wasn't quite like what I had in my mind, I'm wasn't super lean or even lean, so I kinda looked up again and now you're telling me that's because I did a he** ton lot of cardio with no strength training workouts at all, and in the weight loss as much as I've burned the fat so have I the muscles, so I need to eat high protein and start doing resistance training to get rid of that blo*** skinny fat look??????

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RiriMember·10 months ago

And well, your girlie did, in fact, start eating 100g+ of protein daily while being in a calorie deficit and starting doing exercise but it's harddddddd I feel like crying I hate it I hate it so much. I've got braces on so chewing chicken is especially hard, my gums hurt so much to get that protein intake. (yep, I'm just a broke college student who can't afford that protein powder but mind you, I buy all my groceries with my own money so you can't tell me to get my a** out and get some work). It's not like I haven't tried all sorts of other high in protein foods but most of them are really high in calories (which my calorie budget doesn't allow since I need to get my carbs and fats to grow some height too, I'm hoping I do grow) or I don't like them, so chicken works the best for me, being so affordable and high in protein, except, that it doesn't... Work the best.. for my braces... Ha.. Ha... Ha...

Setting aside the chicken, since I didn't had anyone to actually guide me properly and I had to rely on whatever sh** comes up online, last week, I made up my mind and did a 40 minutes hellish workout from seeing a video at yt (Roberta's gym channel) to build some muscle and copied whatever it was doing. And, that, ladies and gentlemen, is where everything went down the hill, no one told me I need to start sloooow, 40 minutes is wayyyy too much for a beginner like me who got none strength at all, but buut, your girlie didn't stop there, not after feeling the soreness in my body after the first day and did the same hellish workout on the second, woa, third, wow, annd fourth day, woowww. Can I have some applausion? Because what in the world was I thinking, delusioning myself that the soreness is just from the muscle getting build 😭??? It's the fifth day and I'm currently laying on my bed like this pepe-2 sticker

: literally ths is me.

RiriMember·10 months ago

Unable to move a single finger. I can't even get up without my stomach feeling like it's getting torn apart. I don't want to do this anymore, I want to give up, so what if I don't have a flat stomach Atleast I'm not fat now ! If I eat in a calorie deficit for the rest of my life I don't even need to get those damned steps in ! I'll just need to get a few steps on the days I eat out to burn the extra calories right??

..but then..., thinking about how somewhere in my life I might regret giving up when I can actually do it now and might not be able to later on or have to do it anyway in the future again because I'm still not satisfied with the way I look, and I'm not doing it now just because it's so hard? So what should I do ..? what do you guys suggest? I have only 5 months, after that I'll be joining college and won't have enough time to measure prep my low calorie high protein meals, getting 25k steps daily, or exercising - excuses tbh, truth is, I just don't want to keep doing this for the rest of my life, I want to enjoy my life like normal teenagers do without having to worry about what I'll eat tomorrow that's in my calorie budget and high protein, then prepare it, or things like getting my steps in or I still have to do exercise today. Help guys