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@borderlinedumb idc my 'friends' theyre all a** tbh but i dont wanna lose my sweet bf's trust

@borderlinedumb happens a lot when you are afraid of being judged, not your fault, its your friends' who dont even make you feel safe with them...saying from experience, i used to do that a lot but when i moved alone, i found some people who really cherished our relationship, i even tried to lie to them initially because of the trauma, but i used to contradict myself sometimes cause you dont remember when you had lied earlier, but they never pointed it out, then overtime it just got really better, now i dont, i just run my mouth unfiltered, change friends!! and about your bf, you can start being honest slowly, if the person is important, we forget the issue and if the issue is more important just forget the person, thats how it works if he cherishes you, this is such a lil thing and shouldnt affect much, its really common okay, just be yourself, trust me, not having friends is better than having bit**** as friends.

@Whatever lysm babe❤️❤️ means a lotttttt tbh imma cry lol tjis made me feel so seen and da** im emotional now shiii. I just told him abt it rn but idk what to do abt the countless number of times ive done it already in the past. I'll try to improve but it's just so difficult to break out of that cycle of lies. Once even made me wonder if our relationship is based on lies. I dont want that to be true cuz i seriously love that guy too much. Past few days have been an existential crisis for me tbh. I really appreciate your response and understanding 😭❤️

@Whatever the problem is that the lying has become such a habit thar it kinda is just a part of my unfiltered self. I genuinely just wish to be better

@borderlinedumb don't worry too much, you just need to share, and in fact, no one will expect you to change instantly, i mean all you need is time, it will get better. cut yourself off those friends, you can find new people, dont involve yourself with them anymore, they aint worth your time and attention. And even if you lie, face it, accept it, but dont feel guilty...that's just how coping mechanisms work. you can just work on it, gradually. give yourself peace, and make yourself feel loved, try picking hobbies, eat healthy, start working out, just take care of yourself, eveything will get better on its own. and im sure your boyfriend would understand that too! babe, when i see myself now, i feel that maybe i suffered with those bich azz friends so i could find the people who cherish me even with such trash habits. its just that sometimes you have to priortize yourself, whatever you do, do it for yourself, feel confident and just give your best, rest....life is a rollercoaster nobody knows where itll take you. try to love yourself first 💖 All the bestt!!

@Whatever you're such a sweetheart 😭💗 i genuinely am so grateful to you

@borderlinedumb 🥰♥️ I'm so happy that i could be of help to you. 😌😘