@dane as for lewis... i feel so sorry. and this is why i will not ever forgive adolf for what he's done. there can not be excuses like "but adolf still loved him 'til the end". you realize the value of something when you lose it, and that's how adolf caught up with how cruel he is. which is indeed not a valid reason to validate his doings. it was most especially hard for lewis knowing that the person you've loved for years has just grown tired of you out of the blue, and as hard as it gets, you're attached and devoted to the other. there is almost to no escape from it, lewis knew and felt that until he passed.
this proves that love is powerful and hurtful at the same time, even in a span of years love can change drastically. this is such a beautiful story.
@dane I agree with your comments. To respond to "I don't get why people feel sorry for Adolf"...I will only say what is clear and basic. We are human. we make a lot of mistakes. We reap what we deserve and sometimes what we don't deserve. There are lots of people who love each other and can't get along maintaining a healthy relationship, so they separate and find happiness sharing their lives with other people. It doesn't mean there wasn't love. To maintain a relationship, love alone is not enough. In this case, I believe that Adolf always loved Lewis, otherwise he would not have become physically and mentally ill. He realized too late that relationships need to know how to maintain them and that life partners are not objects. However, I think it's still a sad situation, especially since it was all his fault. ivan hates adolf and the last time he saw him he looked at him "with pitiful eyes" ... empathy does these things. "ivan was the second option" ivan was not the second option and I think that was what hurt him the most. Until the end, Ivan was never an option for Lewis. Ivan was able to accompany Lewis until the end and showed that he was fine with it. It could have had a different ending, but I think this ending had a huge impact. It really makes you cry. It was the second time I read it and I still cried more than the first time
