@Ryip I never said I was fristruated by it just a bit bothered and why I'm I the fake one when I literally stopped talking to them because they were talking sh** behind my back making everything abt themselves and making me feel insecure? And it's not like I wanted them to clap for me etc I just felt bothered that I was the only one out of the 300 or 600 student there that didn't get no clap or anything other than my mom
ppl luv to talk because it's social. Do you really think your mom always wait for you or your consent to talk about you ? That's plain delusion, or deluding yourself with the pretexte "I can't controle their tongue at my convenience so I'll flee" ==> fragile narcissism (not to be confused with grandiose narcissism).
You're still free to abandon yourself to such narcissist tendency but you're also free to bear all the consequences that comes with it (neverending craving for validation, insecurity each time you witness someone else being praised in front of you, making your relatives suffer, etc).
@Lis You just graduated 8th.... you're still young and even if a person older than 30 were to be there I'm sure they would also have such feelings - experiencing such things at any age could make you feel very self conscious. Don't think about it much, the crowd is mostly filled with the 15 year old's who think they know everything or the people who see themselves as high, mighty and above than anyone else there. It is okay to feel bad, you're still young who has much to learn... feeling bad doesn't automatically make you a bad person or something, it actually tells that you actually cared for those people even if they were not worth your time... I hope you will make friends whom you can rely on in the future... and don't be bothered with the mean comments. Stay strong, feeling sad doesn't make you weak.... it tells that you have emotions and you actually care
