im sorry i kinda confused on the first sentence( eng is not my first language) "that the least I would call it love personally." is it at least i would call it love even tho it mixed with other thing right? 😂sorry for studying english right now😂
i agree on the guilt as well but forgot to mention it earlier. Like i said i dont think it just pure love in their relationship, guilty codependency jealousy is definitely mixed in it 
what i tried to say and people got mad at me is that ian still love Tj because i think he still do but not because Ian love who he TJ now but more like because Ian still love Tj in the past and since at the end Tj in the past and TJ is the same person. It will be hard for Ian to stop loving him. I mean if they really reading the story they would know and i just state the obvious fact, tbh what im writhing right now, is not my thought alone(that would be impossible) 

i have to say that after reading your comment i immediately know that u really read it and put logic than emotion in your comment!  

btw i how would u rate pizza delivery man ? 

 
I think Ian still love TJ for now ofcoz but i wouldn't say there nothing else mixing in it. Such as co-dependency, anxiety etc And before anyone coming at me i just want to say I'm cheering on Jo side more than Tj simply coz he's a microwave boi.
at first ep 15, i also think that Ian "LOVED" tj as in past tense but the more i read the more i think that ain't right. His answer seems  insincere (i mean he's not telling the what he really felt) and the more i read i was like " yeah Ian bury his feeling for Tj." 
For me Ian doesn't seem to hold a grudge for what TJ has done to him at all (the leg)which is not healthy and these2 really need a healthy conversation. ian does love Tj no matter what (it actually show at the moment he shut Tj up with a kiss, which is not healthy these 2 really need healthy communication) but Ian is the type of person who feel guilty easily and when he talked to jason that where I connect the puzzel. Ian believes he will destroy Tj or at least what TJ has build (the gang things) due to his needed to have a normal life. And more importantly he did love Tj enough to put up with gang's life, he more like afraid of himself. Even tho Ian make up his mind to leave Tj. Sleep with someone else to satisfy his s** drive, prepare fake id card.  He doesn't want to completly cut Tj from his life but more like re-define their relationship. Ian even said that they need 3-4 year apart that would be enough for both of them. And for now he stills want to hold on to him, relieve that TJ didn't order anyone to hurt Jo(i think if he did, it would be the last straw for Ian to completly leave him, that why he felt relieved.)

I hope to see Jo more in ss2, his character make my heart soft

I dont get why you mad at me for saying this tho, i dont even pick a team, just state fact here. Jo has a chance to develop his feeling or change Ian mind as much as TJ ha

well written, it nice to see comments that really talking about story with logical base than emotional base

I heard this story will take about 3 years, you all can looking forward to Ian's character growing and development. I bet my hat that it Jo who will be the end game. Tho I didn't cheer on anyone but sometimes only love it's not enough to be together if there are too many differences.

I disagree with that, Define "real love" then

there is many kind of love... friend family that count as love too.  those two still love each other in that way they basically grew up together. But if you talk about romantic side, obviously they are attracted to each other, and at one point of their life they love each other purely and truely nothing involved, especially Ian. that how the bond come from, but it started to twisted to obssession (obviously at TJ side) but just because it twisted doesn't mean it's not one kind of love. On Ian side, if u said it truly pure lu** and attraction, I recommend u read the whole story again. Ian obviously buried his love underneath and try to leave because he afraid to ruined TJ life or at least what TJ has build. Ian is the type of person who feel guilty easily, and in his head he believes they shouldn't be together. there is many scenarios he try to buried his emotion and lie to just get away with it. He still want to hang on to TJ, if not because of love which created bond then what else?? If because he just still "care". What would u care about person u not love? 

i said it on my main comment and i will said it again 
What those 2 have is beyond just "is they love each other(romantically)?" Romantically definitely mixed in it but they other kind of love in there too that why it's hard for both of them to let go.

all i try to say is saying they don't love each other just because it didn't look like love? I did it before on this comment section(u will find it in another ep.) and find it too shallow for this story.  I didn't say there is pure love and nothing involved you clearly see that there is obsession, jealousy , toxicity and many variables showing there. 

i dont think they wouldn't go that far for each other because just lu** and attraction. 

ian feeling relieved in this ep. is kinda be evidence to me that Ian still not ready to actually let go and still want to hang on to TJ. However it raise some concern that if they are actually end up together, Will Ian feeling like this for the rest of his life.. 

ps. Both Jo and TJ team pls dont eat me im only Ian's mama , and literally chills with whoever Ian end up with