Ima vent here ::
sorry if im ruining the mood but i wanna die
ive been depressed for two years ill lie if i say i havent smiled yes there are some good days but i feel this big hole inside me
i want to escape and just die
i dont have the motivation that i used to have for studying i went from straight A* to Bs and Cs
from a top student to average
and growing up n realizing how fûcked up my famliy is and getting no validation from them my only source of happiness was school validation but since ive lost that there is genuinely nothing to be happy about
all my friends are fake , they talk behind my back
my sisters are all fuc*** up like me
my oldest sister is abusive
my parents are abusive
my family treats me diff after i lost my smart student role
Im fatshamed every single day even tho im literally skinny for my hight i have (ed)
my coping mechanism is ignoring everything because thats the only way
if i tell my parents that i want therapy they will make a fool out me and lecture me about how its just teenage hormones changes
i cant sleep
its 3am rn i had a huge fight with my dad around 12am
i wanna end it all but i cant because its haram
thats the only thing thats keeping me alive
if it hasnt been haram i wouldve 100% died in ninth grade (im in eleventh grade)
my only hope is that one day ill run away and leave this life behind
This is a day later had another fight
Tried it didnt work unfortunately still alive
The prob is i have school tmro idk how to hide the scars,,,reply if yk how to cover them please there is like 6 lines to cover :)
Comment by 123abc on Stranger Than Friends - Chapter 50
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hi im sorry you had to go through that i have no experience in SH but to cover up scars on ur wrists u can wear bracelets , wear long school shirt to cover ur arms wear a school jumper, makeup or u can mabye draw over them ik u could possibly get ink p0i5oning but try use a non toxic pen like a whiteboard pen . i hope ok because no one deserves this. if u are 18 u have the free will to move out legaly. im sorrry if this didnt help but i hope ur doing well :)
hi im sorry you had to go through that i have no experience in SH but to cover up scars on ur wrists u can wear bracelets , wear long school shirt to cover ur arms wear a school jumper, makeup or u can mabye draw over them ik u could possibly get ink p0i5oning but try use a non toxic pen like a whiteboard pen . i hope ok because no one deserves this. if u are 18 u have the free will to move out legaly. im sorrry if this didnt help but i hope ur doing well :)
I am muslim too and ive had a moment in my life where i wanted to end it but didn't because it was haram. You know, in the end its all gonna lead back to allah. You know allah would never burden you with something you can't handle and its all just a test. keep your head up high. The best thing to do in this situation is to abandon your "friends" and focus on yourself and what you want to work for. Set goals you want to fufill in both dunya and akhira. Try not to think of the negative things going on. Surround yourself with things that make you happy. Halal things that keep your mind off of the bad things. I hope things gte easier for you.
heyy we all r here for u i mean yea we r strangers but diff families r diff that way so to ans ur qn u can juat put like a patch of "salon pass" yes it may stink but its smth to cover up depends on whr.. also if u so need help u should try talking to ur sch counsellor if u do need help like therapy or ur tch if u do need help and i was in ur situation whr i was depressed but how i could go through during the time i was in sch was ignore everyone and think whats best for myself.And i did feel the same way as u abt k*ll*** myself but knowing it is haram is just a pain. so in my opinion the best way to control what ur feeling is to let out ur emotions towards someone u trust and who can listen to u. just saying think whats best for u,,this is ur life not ur parents nor ur sisters. dont care whatever they say if they fat shame u ignore them coz my mom also does that to me till now but i just ignore.if u ever feel that u cant do this then, take step by step pray that ur life will be better. nothings gonna change if u dont do smth abt it.
Oo baby work hard get a job and leave that house I promise there is a great future ahead of you.
About scars you can use concealer or foundation or just use some antiseptic cream and let that be as it was
Hey, I'm so sorry you're going through it and i wish I could help more but i myself hide my scars so i have a few tips
3) if you have them on your arms wear a lot of bracelets stacked together one on top of the other
Hey there! I just want to say that I'm incredibly sorry that you have to go through that at this age, but I'm not here to victimize you. I'm here to give you genuine advice. Since comments can't be too long here this is all I'll say. You need to find things that make you happy, and people that make you happy and full. When you have that nothing else will really matter. I know that your family isn't helpful at all and that the topic of mental health and depression is very foreign. But know that you can't change them. What you can do is work on yourself, on your mental health and build your own life in which they won't matter! (if you want to talk more : [email protected])
talking abt haram in the comment section of a gay manhwa 😭 i reckon you should be way past caring about religion at this point
Honestly ur very right [poco:0]
Hi I'm sorry to here you're struggling, but give this a little time I'm sure it'll get better from here. I think you should start putting yourself first and try to keep a little distance from what hurts you.. you should do the small things that bring you even an ounce of joy and just like the other wonderful people who replied, I'm here for you and I believe you are destined to do much greater things and that it might seem hard and impossible for things to change but it'll get better. If you feel like you're still struggling I'll help you in any way I can <3 take care and I'd like you to know you're needed her